07 Jan I’m Not Going To Do Anything For Christ (1 of 2)
I read a powerful short blog article today that sums up alot of what I feel my last several years have been about. It’s here courtesy of Anne Jackson, whose blog I follow regularly.
this year i have only one resolution: to do less.
i’m not talking about simplifying, either. i mean that very literally.
i will do less.
this doesn’t mean i’m complacent. it doesn’t mean i’m lazy. it doesn’t mean i’m apathetic. it doesn’t mean i’m going to sit on my rump all day and google stuff. that’s not what i mean at all.
lately i’ve been studying a really great book that has caused me to re-evaluate my typical complicated way of thinking and doing things.
normally i think, “i want to do more for christ.”
may i be so bold to state: i don’t want to do anything for christ.
the more and more i walk along this road the more and more i realize how backwards i have it. i cannot do anything for christ. the things that are done through me for his kingdom are just that. they are done through me.
in the aforementioned book, watchman nee talks about the process of saving someone who’s drowning.
if they’re doing all they can, fighting to stay afloat, there’s no way somebody can rescue them. they’ll take both the rescuer and themselves down under.
they only way you can rescue a struggling swimmer is to either let them freak out until they’re too tired to do it anymore, or you have to knock them unconscious in order to bring them back.
i have been desperately treading water far too long.
and i really don’t want to be knocked unconscious.
i am going to go and walk in the fact that everything god has accomplished is done. and i just need to lose more of myself and let him guide my steps. i need to get out of the way.